Infinitely absurd

Before you race ya mind, wanna let you know that this post has no resemblance to the reality


I dunno if you remember, you once told me you cared. But now I see the truth in your eyes. It always has been like if I was never even there. Now All I hear now is your lies. I felt that you and I were also close but now it seems we've drifted afar. Now your true self shows. You have left me alone with this single scar. You have left me in the cold, all alone and afraid for no reasons of mine.I’ve shed these tears for you though it has never mattered to you. I see you're off with my heart full of pain. For you have made me but a lonely lost soul. All alone with nothing to do, all alone with this pain. There's nothing I could say; I'm slowly dying in vein. Every day since it happened, I have been replaying it in my head. My faith in friendship, trust, and loyalty is dead! Everything that I have spent half my life building has been destroyed. Dreams have been crushed and my sense of self-being has been replaced by hate and vengeance. I've watched you through the bottom of this empty glass -How you've changed. Don't turn around; I don't want you to see this tears. Just leave as quickly as you came; the pain in my eyes is too clear. Make your way toward the door. I’m trying to seem strong; Emotion I'm trying to hide. You brought us here; There's no comfort from having tried. I cannot get close to anyone anymore. And I'll soon be on the mend.

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Did you ever just sit down with a laptop and have totally no idea what to write about? Well, that seems to be happening to me today. I can think of absolutely nothing to write, but want to write.

Sometimes I have no problem at all, I'll be loitering and all of a sudden I get this idea for an article; I can sit down and bang that out in just a few minutes. Gosh!!, I love those times. Then there are days like today; pissing off, irritating, annoying…. I sit in front of the laptop and stare at that yucky cursor. It just sits there and blinks at me. It's like its taunting me, laughing at me because I have nothing to say. The pressure is unbearable. Blink, Blink, Blink. I suppose I could change it to one of those smiley faces or a chocolate, but then I would have a smiley face or chocolate blinking at me.

Guess it is better to pen down the best ever gift I got last night. Forget about stale old yardsticks from flowers to candy to special brunches. This is a long awaited one. But, really, if there’s no shoving, no tantrums and not even a little trickle of anger, frankly, I’m not interested. If I want to watch a bunch of over-dressed guys being gentlemanly, I’d rather go buy myself a gift from the store with nicest salesmen. At least they have nice plastic smile draped in chivalry drawing some of the real good stuff.

The gift was so thoughtful and unique. It was thoughtful because it made me feel special and made the right impression. Unique coz it is ever-lasting, sentimental and beautiful. Girls love memories and this generous gesture is unmatchable. Incredibly awesome would be an understatement. It reminds me of how much I talk leaving him gazing, shout leaving his ears dangling, crib leaving him snoring, and swear leaving his eyes bulging.

Felt as if It was a powerful set of instincts that were working while selecting the gift, honed by thousands of years of social habit and evolution.That was a perfect recipe of harmony, caring, affection.....

THNX a tonn bud...